Saturday, September 26, 2009

Keeping hyperventilating...

So I have a dream in which I am somewhere - I don't know this place - with people - whom I do not know - going over all the things I have to do - which aren't the things on my to-do list - at the same time that I am trying to do some of those things. And I start freaking out and eventually hyperventilate. EXACTLY what nearly happens every school year thanks to the yearbook. I manage to keep my cool most of the time - mix more chemicals, meet the deadlines, answer all the e-mails, check the voice mail, faster fasterfaster...... But I guess it really does get to me if I dream about it. I just wish friends understood why I have zero energy to do anything when I get home. If I sit down, I am done for the day.

Then I also have so many things to do for town. Of course, I get cellulitis in my ring finger on my left hand planting the mums and no one else shows up to help Marta with planting but Dave. Two and a half hours in the ER and my thoughts aren't "I hope this is OK" but "I could be getting so many things done right now." Hmmm...

But I will remain to keep cool...I do hope my Halloween costume drives the point home at PV. I could also just not worry about getting things done perfectly but that's not like the straight-A student I was and it's a hard habit to break. I feel my chest starting to tighten as I write this. Yikes! Maybe there will be a good rag to get at Borders later...and a snickerdoodle...

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